Eyes of Not

I lie staring at walls
with eyes of Not
learing eerily back
sighting futures of I
visions of old
seeing now
taunting twisting tearing
thy soul
Laughing at pain
proding at sanity
until peices remain
yet i lie staring
into the dreaded
eyes of Not

To Want

If you had all that you want
Would you want more?
Would you want nothing?
Could you?
If you wanted nothing
Would you not still want?

Can you ever stop wanting
even if you want to?

Bound Words

As pages turn
chapters die
Lifes revealed
to my eye
Although my story
it is i see
I cannot control
what is read to me

Air of change subtle, sweet
poisons every breathe
coughing up life's rich wine
as skin turns pale and white
I hold on tight to what is mine
and visions of better times
swirl before my eyes
and i long for one last breathe
one last breathe of change

So much time
spent for not
wasted in the void
Cherished false hopes
shrouded in uncertainty
plauging lifes very essence
a chronic desease
wrought by dreams
fasioned by my own heart

Waiting for the Pen

I lie here blank
A page of white
without lines
without ink
an endless sheet
without edge
without corner
a bleached leaf
without color
without life

The Way I See It

Love is to want only happiness
   It is not physical
      It is not just
          It is not fair
             And does not die
Love connot be controlled
   It cannot be contained
      and to fight it causes only pain
Love cannot be used
   It cannot be forgotten
     You cannot leave it
         Or put it down
Accept it and let it flow
   For it is the only way
      You will be free
   Even if you cannot have
      That which you love